Truthful Tuesday {9.21.10}

I don't think I have been very honest with myself or with my bloggers. Most of you know that I've been dealing with my weight for a while now and even though at one point I was going to the gym sometimes and trying to eat healthier sometimes I really wasnt doing my best. And truthfully I thought I am fine the way I am. And I kept on making excuses. No I am by no means obese but in the past year and a half I have gained 30 lbs.

I have been at this weight before back in 2004 and had decided to loose it in 2005. I promised myself I would never get back to this weight again and threw away all my "fat" clothes. But now I am right back here. I am 5 feet 4 inches and weigh 163.6 lbs. That has my BMI at 28.1 and to be at a normal weight my BMI needs to be between 18.5 - 24.9.  I went to my mother-in-laws this week and she asked if I was pregnant and I told her no I'm just fat. I'm tired of looking this way and not doing anything about it.

I hate that joining a gym, weight watchers, jenny craig or even just eating healthier when dining out cost so much money! Money that I don't have! But that cant be my excuse any more! I don't want to get pregnant at this weight and gain 30lbs and be at close to 200! That can't happen!!!!!!!!!! I will not let that happen! I need to be healthier for me and for the baby I want to have some day.

So I woke up this morning with the feeling that it was time for a change. It's time to get serious about loosing weight and no more excuses. Believe me I know this process takes time. Last time it took me about 9mths to loose 30 lbs the healthy way. So I decided to start off by having 2 short term goals.

1. Since it takes doing something for 21 days to become a habbit, I decided for the next 21 days I am not going to have anything sweet to kick my sweet tooth and do pilates in the morning and some cardio in the evenings.

2. I am going to strive to loose 10 lbs by my birthday which is November 27.

I have decided to call this project, Project Weight Off. I am going to start tomorrow weighing myself and I'm going to take a picture of myself to post so I can keep track of my changes. Whitney over at Slimming Down for the Gown has truly inspired me to do this! This morning when I went to Whitney's blog I saw a new post that caught my attention. It was titled, If this doesn't Motivate you, I don't know what will! And this is what was posted.



Watching this especially after I already woke up with a feeling that I needed to do this, totally validated me. I'm taking this as a sign that I can do this and I will do this! If he can do this and if Whitney can do it then why not me? And any time I feel like I can't I'm going to rewatch this.

Truthful Tuesday {5.18.10}

I am an open book usually and will tell anyone pretty much anything. I know there are some things that I share that I probably shouldn't but I just hate keeping things bottled up inside me. So I have decided to start Truthful Tuesdays on my blog as a way for me to be completely honest with myself and with my readers.

As some of you know from my last blog Planning Our Wedding I have been having an issue with my weight. When my husband and I first met in high school I was a 130lbs but still had a little bit of a pooch. I have ALWAYS had an issue with my weight since I was little. Our first year in college, I gained 30lbs which is the heaviest I'd ever been. I kept the weight on for about a year before finally deciding that it was time I lost it. To loose the weight I was working out 6 days a week and following ediets.com. I finally got back to the 130's and stayed that way for a while.

Last year right after Joey and I got engaged, we had to move in with his grandmother while our house was getting built. I did't have a gym to work out in and I wasn't able to cook. So we were eating fast food pretty much 3x a day. Needless to say I gained all my weight back and am now inching near 160lbs. (No Mr. Lopez didnt gain any weight and is as thin as ever) I tried to loose the weight for my wedding and I just got lazy. I absolutely hate working out and even with an upcoming wedding I had no motivation. I just wanted to be loved the way I am.

Looking at the pics that I've seen so far of me on my wedding day I just look sooo fat and really wish I would have lost the weight. I'm  by no means obese but with me being only 5'4" I look a lot bigger. Now to present day. Joey and I have always known we wanted two kids. Now that we are married we have started thinking about how long we are going to wait before trying. That hasn't officially been decided yet but I do know that when I get pregnant and gain weight I don't want to weigh more than I do now!

This leads to my journey of loosing 30lbs! I need to get back in the 130's so when we do decide to get pregant and I gain weight again I can be more comfortable at the weight I'm at and at a weight I know I can loose after the baby comes. So I will be joining Eyegirl and others for Weigh-In Wednesday and discuss what I've been doing to accomplish this goal. Wish me luck!