Truthful Tuesday {9.21.10}

I don't think I have been very honest with myself or with my bloggers. Most of you know that I've been dealing with my weight for a while now and even though at one point I was going to the gym sometimes and trying to eat healthier sometimes I really wasnt doing my best. And truthfully I thought I am fine the way I am. And I kept on making excuses. No I am by no means obese but in the past year and a half I have gained 30 lbs.

I have been at this weight before back in 2004 and had decided to loose it in 2005. I promised myself I would never get back to this weight again and threw away all my "fat" clothes. But now I am right back here. I am 5 feet 4 inches and weigh 163.6 lbs. That has my BMI at 28.1 and to be at a normal weight my BMI needs to be between 18.5 - 24.9.  I went to my mother-in-laws this week and she asked if I was pregnant and I told her no I'm just fat. I'm tired of looking this way and not doing anything about it.

I hate that joining a gym, weight watchers, jenny craig or even just eating healthier when dining out cost so much money! Money that I don't have! But that cant be my excuse any more! I don't want to get pregnant at this weight and gain 30lbs and be at close to 200! That can't happen!!!!!!!!!! I will not let that happen! I need to be healthier for me and for the baby I want to have some day.

So I woke up this morning with the feeling that it was time for a change. It's time to get serious about loosing weight and no more excuses. Believe me I know this process takes time. Last time it took me about 9mths to loose 30 lbs the healthy way. So I decided to start off by having 2 short term goals.

1. Since it takes doing something for 21 days to become a habbit, I decided for the next 21 days I am not going to have anything sweet to kick my sweet tooth and do pilates in the morning and some cardio in the evenings.

2. I am going to strive to loose 10 lbs by my birthday which is November 27.

I have decided to call this project, Project Weight Off. I am going to start tomorrow weighing myself and I'm going to take a picture of myself to post so I can keep track of my changes. Whitney over at Slimming Down for the Gown has truly inspired me to do this! This morning when I went to Whitney's blog I saw a new post that caught my attention. It was titled, If this doesn't Motivate you, I don't know what will! And this is what was posted.



Watching this especially after I already woke up with a feeling that I needed to do this, totally validated me. I'm taking this as a sign that I can do this and I will do this! If he can do this and if Whitney can do it then why not me? And any time I feel like I can't I'm going to rewatch this.